my head, right now

God looks so appealing to me, that i would be insane to ignore Him. so much He has told me about Himself that He has proven over and over. i am like the generation the bible talks about that will need a sign. i am the "believe it when i see it" person, and i often wonder why God is merciful to me. i envy those who trust in the lord with all their heart, before their head knows what is going on. my faith is pathetic. hardly faith at all.
either way God is so perfect, i cannot know what i know and not follow Him. ...to the ends of the earth.