change of mind and heart

this is the day we go for the first hearing, concerning jay who we are trying to adopt. the other day i so much wanted to bring him home no matter the cost. how quickly i forget about the things in the past i have BEGGED God for repeatedly and even though it wasn't the best thing for me, He went ahead and gave it to me, and of course not too long after i was begging Him to take it away.(having caused much heartache)
so this morning i woke up with a built in desire for God to do what He deems best. i do want jay, but more than that i want my entire life to be in a position best suited for God worship. if that means no baby's then so be it. if it means 8 baby's, so be it.
my Lord, thank you for changing my mind.