though shalt have no other gods before me.

i feel the need to explain the madonna thing. i have recently started dancing (at home, ALONE) so i have begun searching for dance music, and madonna makes perfect music for the such.

on a side note, life is extremely busy right now, not by choice, and i need strength to get thru it. with so much to do right away, i lack the motivation that i desperatly need to get the things done. i have let myself go into the "i deserve this and that" mode since i am working so much, and its really ugly. i wish i could just serve and not desire so much to be served. eric is not falling in my traps as he once did so my desire to be served is not being met and this only makes me angry. i really want God to take this desire out of me. the one that wishes to be served.