resting

dec 26 pm i got nauseous, threw up a few times, went to the doctor tuesday morning, blood pressure dropped so low the doctor put me on my very first ambulance ride and i spent all day tuesday at cmc ER. they did IV and lots of test which all came out ok, and sent me home around 5pm that evening. mean while hundreds of people seriously i think where praying for me in what can only be called a good old fashioned prayer chain. people i don't even speak with on a regular basis called on wednesday to see how i was. i am abundantly loved far more than anyone deserves. thank you to everyone who called to see how i was and to everyone who lifted me up to God that day. even the burns on my hands i got christmas day that where blistered badly where gone tuesday night.
i am still somewhat weak and i think this is Gods way of drawing me into His rest. i stay so busy and try to do far too much instead of resting in the Lord the way he intends for me to. He wants to take care of me well, but i gotta let him or else, being merciful as He is, He will force me. i do want His rest, even though my actions don't always display it. or rarely i should say.