marriage

its been a rare weekend without my husband.
we have been together since i was 16 (he was my salvation from a home i didnt like) so i am not used to being without him or alone.
i mean i want him to come home safe and sound, theres too much i like about him, but having the appartment to myself for a few days has been wonderful. i feel like i've gone off to college and escaped the watchful eye of mom and dad or something.
it turns out marriage is nothing like what i thought it would be. i have someone to answer too and everything in me, fights that. i mean its not like he tells me what to do or is a control freak or anything but i seem overly independent these days. not wanting to answer to anyone. i have never been like this before.
eric is, as good a husband as they come. he is gentle, loving, forgiving, and he loves God. i couldnt ask for more. so its definitly not a problem with him. i want to be a good wife to him. i think it will come down to deciding which i want more. my way or His.